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i was internally debating whether i should create a blog solely devoted to the jokester (it's what i call my GOD, our Lord, Jesus Christ)and face possible skepticism, and worse - harsh criticisms . a loud booming voice echoed that it's probably NOT the best of my ideas. it shouted that people may think of me as a hypocrite - writing about Jesus, proclaiming His name, but is not actually following His commands as they should be followed.

that voice has a point. heck, my temper alone is a big hindrance. perhaps. yet every time i think of it, several counterarguments crop up, including the following:

1. the decision to follow Jesus won't exactly translate to a 100% transformation overnight. however great my resolve to truly become a Christian will always be hindered by my human nature. i am sinful with a bad temper to boot. as a human being, there is always the tendency to follow the world's ways instead of the jokester's. these statements maybe taken by critics and skeptics alike as disclaimers, a sign of not being 100% committed to following Jesus Christ, but i'm hoping that they not be taken as such. rather i'd like them to be seen as efforts to be truly one with the Lord. that yes, with a GOD who showers love, forgiveness, and grace - a 100% reversal of what i am today is possible in HIS TIME.

2. i've always been vocal about my opinion on things. i've always "prided" myself as someone who can stand up for her beliefs. yes, having this stance and desire is quite unexpected even to myself. some of my friends could vouch of the great hatred i had of our GOD. so, when confronted with the question "what will people think of you?" more often than not, the answers i'm always given are "WHEN has other people's opinion matter to you? this is your belief now - how is this belief different from your other beliefs that you will choose to keep it to yourself and not be bold enough to stand up for it?"

3. i'm not pretending to be holier than thou. what this is (writing about Jesus Christ) is merely a personal account of struggles and testimonies of how the Lord is slowly revealing Himself in my life, and that it's about time to acknowledge HIS presence all those years i was so preoccupied about myself and my pretend intelligence. it's about time that i relinquish control and embrace HIS plans for my life.

4. shouldn't this scripture be enough an invitation? that no matter what you've done in the past, small or great, YOU ARE WHOM GOD SEEKS?

it is my prayer that i can have a transformed life SOON and that through my own struggles in coming to the light, i'll be able to touch at least one soul to reconsider about knowing Jesus Christ and HIS infinite love for us - that we take it without questions. that we STOP REJECTING HIS LOVE.

HIS LOVE has always been ours for the taking. so, why delay claiming it? after all, IT'S FREE. no strings attached.